Wednesday, April 30, 2008

The inexpressible.

Lately it feels as though I have been living my life on the surface. I going through duty after duty only to receive more duties. I feel as though I am not doing what I should be doing and that I have been in the same spot for far too long. I begin to think of my personal evolution, the direction of my character, what is important and what is unimportant. And the two things that are occupying my mind are: I) What does it mean to be the best version of yourself and how does one get there? II) What does it mean to communicate with God? How does it feel? What is it that people aspire towards? and what is their motivation. For anyone who might be reading this, I would appreciate your thoughts, ideas and words. Listening to those around me has often been what has inspired me most, considering that we are all on a journey of self-actualization. Whatever that means (0:


poppies in july said...

sometimes i wonder if understanding the best version of yourself isn't a sort of complete self-actualization in itself-- if only for the brief moment in which you understand it. because isn't the best version of ourselves manifest not only through our actions, but contained in the formula described by the intent of our hearts? and isn't the "best" somehow aligned in our communion with our god, whoever he might be?
i'm so glad to have stumbled across your blog, dina-- so lovely to read your thoughts and to be inspired to pursue some of mine.
much love, (lia)

Jack said...

Not that Utah is a bad place.
But you've been there for so long now,...
These two big questions you have, I think you'll be able to answer them once you leave Utah.
Personal evolution can happen anywhere, but it works better and faster if you allow yourself to discover new horizons.